Adjustment.
My world sometimes feels beyond my control. A sailboat sans rudder. Part of this feeling is from my recent return to single status, part from some big changes in my work life that have been leaving me unsure about my career direction. For as adventurous as I would like to believe I am, I still have intense cravings for routine and familiarity - I take comfort in my customary life.
All this change has me worried. I know that the odds are long, but I can't help but think about the possibility of failure in what I'm doing and where I'm going now. I'm my own worst enemy sometimes.
Luckily, my stronger feeling is excitement. Historically, change has been good to me, even when it comes in a crappy box. I've always managed to land on my feet, learn a little something, and end up a better person for the experience. I'm excited to see where this plotted course takes me, the things I learn and the people I meet.
As I type this, there is the sound of thunder outside. Thunder in LA is a very rare event - I could count the number of thunderstorms I've seen in 6+ years of living here without running out of fingers. I'm gonna consider the thunder my own little symbol right now. A bookmark.
Optimism feels pretty damn good.
All this change has me worried. I know that the odds are long, but I can't help but think about the possibility of failure in what I'm doing and where I'm going now. I'm my own worst enemy sometimes.
Luckily, my stronger feeling is excitement. Historically, change has been good to me, even when it comes in a crappy box. I've always managed to land on my feet, learn a little something, and end up a better person for the experience. I'm excited to see where this plotted course takes me, the things I learn and the people I meet.
As I type this, there is the sound of thunder outside. Thunder in LA is a very rare event - I could count the number of thunderstorms I've seen in 6+ years of living here without running out of fingers. I'm gonna consider the thunder my own little symbol right now. A bookmark.
Optimism feels pretty damn good.
posted by steve at 12:53 AM
6 Comments:
I'm not a big fan of change. I think if the world had stopped progressing right after we got electricity and indoor plumbing, I would be okay with that.
Hey, Steve, sorry to hear you are feeling out of sorts. I often shrink from change, only to find that it was the best thing that could have happened to me. I have to remind myself of this when I find myself shrinking once again.
But I am sad to hear about you and Melba. I liked you guys together without even knowing you. :(
I was wondering if you were going to mention you and Melba. (I heard the news from Heather--I hope that's OK.)
Add me to the camp that doesn't deal well with change. It sounds like you have the right attitude, though. Don't the all-knowing "they" say that attitude is everything?
Hang in there buddy. Life is full of gutter balls and strikes - and a positive outlook is always a good thing to have.
Mellar
Hey steve!
This is Sutter from The Superest. I'm trying to track you down to verify your shipping address for your t-shirt. Your email address is bouncing back on me. Contact us!
matt(at)thesuperest(dot)com
thanks!
You're right -optimism does feel very good and is the only way to go! Hope all's well with you :).
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