Therapy, sessions 7 & 8

I'm combining my posts from the last two sessions, since it seems like we've been covering the same topics over and over again. A topic we only touched upon briefly, but I think is very important, is my way of dealing with anger. Specifically, I keep anger stashed away for fear of expressing it. Most people who know me well seem to see me as a pretty even-keel guy, and I've got a pretty long fuse. But things do bother me, and I've never really figured out how to express anger in healthy ways; I just stash it away and ignore it. Hell, I've never been in a fight or hit anyone in anger in my life, despite wanting to on more than a few occasions.

I'm sure most of my reluctance to express anger stems from my fear of becoming my father. Seeing how he let anger ruin his life and hurt his family left an indelible mark on my psyche. I've gone to the opposite extreme; never expressing anger in any way, never letting anyone get close to me.

I plan to bring this up in the next session, see if I can learn something.