Therapy, Part 2
Tuesday was my second session. We talked at great length about my need to be independent and self-sufficient, and how I'm unable to trust others because of my intense instinct for self-preservation. I'm one of the most self-sufficient people I know; I fix my own car, my computers, pretty much everything in my life that can ever break, I can fix it. Everything except myself.
The trust vs. self-preservation issue will be my biggest battle to overcome in my relationships. All my life, I've operated the same way: If I trust you, and I let you into my own little world, you could start breakin' my shit. Or worse, you could decide to bail on me after I trust you and that just can't happen. No fucking way.
So I continue as I am, until I figure out a better way.
The funny part is, I thought I had dealt with most of these issues when I was younger. It seems that they're still with me.
The trust vs. self-preservation issue will be my biggest battle to overcome in my relationships. All my life, I've operated the same way: If I trust you, and I let you into my own little world, you could start breakin' my shit. Or worse, you could decide to bail on me after I trust you and that just can't happen. No fucking way.
So I continue as I am, until I figure out a better way.
The funny part is, I thought I had dealt with most of these issues when I was younger. It seems that they're still with me.
Labels: shrink
posted by steve at 10:48 PM
2 Comments:
Dude! Way to go. 2nd session and you're already focusing on some important stuff. The best part comes when you find the root of those issues. Somewhere along the way you learn how to deal with them. One thing I've learned in the past 10 months is that the Doc won't actually tell you HOW to deal with them. It's a discovery process.
Hang in there :)
I'll definitely hang in there. At least 'til my insurance runs out at session #20. ;)
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