I (or not)

I'm at a loss for topics about me that begin with "I", so I'm going to skip it and cover something else that I've been thinking about lately. Balance.

I often feel the need to sugar-coat my moods and put on a sunnier-than-reality disposition for the benefit of other people in my life; not so much for my closest friends, but for cow-orkers or second and third tier friends. You know, the people who *really matter*. I know, it doesn't make sense. Anyway, I'm aware of this tendency of mine (inherited from my father) and I've been working on being more genuine about how I'm feeling, not only with myself but with everyone else. Not in an annoying TMI way if someone just asks me how I am, but just in a more real, less sugary way.

Now contrast that with my recent posts here where I've been angrier and darker than I really need to be (what was I thinking with that post about hating it when people comment?), and I've come to realize that I need to strike a better balance here, too. I don't want this blog to be a shiny, happyass false picture of my life, but it doesn't need to be a dumping ground for angry rants, either.

Balance. I should have posted this a few days ago for "B".